May we could start again.

It breaks my heart that you don’t smile anymore,
I’m dying to help you heal but you won’t unlock your door,
You say it takes time, but you don’t have to spend it alone.

You’re stuck in the memory that you desperately to rewind,
You’re too busy looking back, won’t you make another try,
Now your trust is gone, but you won’t find it again on your own.

So don’t go telling me it’s too late to start,
You’re still holding a broken heart,
But if you let me in,
Baby, you can start again. 

And don’t go telling me there’s no second chance,
You’ll understand when you take my hand,
Baby let me in,
I promise we will start again.

Trying to get to you so I make this promises,
I swear they are unbreakable, but your still just hearing hiss,
She won’t let you go ’til you decided you want to be free.

You’re haunted by yesterday and still sore from the fall,
All you need is to whitewash this old walls,
Paint something new, if you let yourself listen to me.

So don’t go telling me it’s too late to start,
You’re still holding a broken heart,
But if you let me in,
Baby, you can start again. 

Don’t give up yet, I won’t let you close the curtain too soon,
We can reset, you can take the leap and let me show you,
You just gotta make the choice.

We love , we lose, and you think that the best defence is distance,
You know, what now, put it on the mute so you can listen,
But there’s a way out of here, just follow my voice..

What is love?

Love. A feeling that is so complicated yet so so beautiful. It's like having cotton candy while you're flying where you feel like everything moves around you and your other half. Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life. But for now, for me that is, there are other things to worry and think about than love. Love can wait. And love shall wait. 

Lost here in this moment and time keeps slipping by

It's so fast, it's so soon. Leaving on a jetplane to pursue my dreams. Leaving my loves ones. Leaving a life that I've come accustom to.

There's always a reason for silence

A friend of mine told me that I seem different. Different as in, I don't talk much as I use to. She was kinda hurt because she thought I was ignoring her or wasn't interested on what she was talking. To those who know me well, they'll say I'm a chatterbox. You couldn't shut me up even if you try. I'll be going blablabla with my merepekness, highly imaginative imagination and lame jokes in between all day long. But now, I seem quieter than the old me.

Love, it's not that I have lost interest in what you were talking about or anything. I was listening. I was listening well don't worry, it's just for the past month, it's hard to talk. Like talk talk. A lot of people know about it, but only few could relate to it. I love to talk, and laugh, I could talk and laugh all day till there's no tomorrow.

But the problem now is that, if I do that, I'll be in a cough fist afterwards. Disadvantage of an asthmatic patient -.-" Especially when you got it at this age. There are certain things you can't do, like drinking ice water (which i love so much), eating spicy foods, too many dairy, dust, stress, cats, and the list goes on and on and on..

Whenever I have the cough fist, I can't sleep at night. The only way for me to sleep is by sitting. I can't lay down flat. And the chest would be so heavy and it's so hard to breathe at times. I hate it when it happens. There goes my good night sleep.. So sometimes, the best thing for me to do, is just smile, nod and keep quiet and just listen to whatever they are talking about so that I won't get an attack. 

But hey, there are people who are worst so I shouldn't complain right? At least it teaches me to be humble and it reminds me of Him constantly.

So this is my battle, my inner battle.

The Aurora Heroes

Aurora Lads, who touched us all.

Great evil often brings out the best in good men, men like Todd Beamer on Flight 93, Medal of Honor recipient Michael Murphy in Afghanistan and now the Aurora three -- the three young men, each in different parts of theater nine, who gave their lives to protect their girlfriends.

Twenty-five-year-old Jon Blunk was sitting next to his girlfriend, Jansen Young, at the midnight premiere of "The Dark Knight Rises" when the gunman (who shall remain nameless) opened fire in the dark theater. Blunk instinctively pushed his girlfriend to the ground and threw his body on top of hers. Blunk, a security guard, served eight years in the Navy and was in the process of re-enlisting in hopes of becoming a Navy SEAL, family and friends said. He was killed in the gunfire; his girlfriend survived.

Twenty-four-year-old Alex Teves dived on top of his girlfriend, Amanda Lindgren, when the gunfire erupted. Covering her body, he took the bullets so they did not harm her. She survived the massacre; he did not.

Matt McQuinn, 27 years old, threw his body in front of his girlfriend, Samantha Yowler, as the shooting continued. Yowler survived with a gunshot wound to the knee; McQuinn's body absorbed the fatal shots.

These men were three of the 12 innocent people killed early that morning. Their incredible sacrifice leaves us asking: Why? Why would a young man with his entire life ahead of him risk everything for a woman he has no legal, financial or marital obligations to?

As Hanna Rosin so eloquently pointed out in a recent article, calling it chivalry would be a tremendous understatement. By all appearances, these men believed that a man has a responsibility to protect a woman, even to the point of death. They believed that there are things in life worth dying for and the innocent woman sitting next to them was one.

They believed, to put it simply, in a code of honor. They put the lives of the women before their own, an old fashioned notion to be sure, but certainly an honorable one (if you have any doubt, ask the survivors). Their instincts were to protect, not run away.

In an age when traditional manhood has been increasingly relegated to fiction -- capes, masks and green screens -- these three men stand as real-life heroes. Their actions remind us that good triumphs over evil, not just in movies, but also, in reality.

May the rest in peace.

The Aurora Lads who's actions touch everyone.

Aurora heroes: Three who gave their lives

Jon Blunk, Alex Teves and Matt McQuinn were killed in the Aurora shooting, 
as they used their bodies to shield their girlfriends.

Great evil often brings out the best in good men, men like Todd Beamer on Flight 93, Medal of Honor recipient Michael Murphy in Afghanistan and now the Aurora three -- the three young men, each in different parts of theater nine, who gave their lives to protect their girlfriends.

Twenty-five-year-old Jon Blunk was sitting next to his girlfriend, Jansen Young, at the midnight premiere of "The Dark Knight Rises" when the gunman (who shall remain nameless) opened fire in the dark theater. Blunk instinctively pushed his girlfriend to the ground and threw his body on top of hers. Blunk, a security guard, served eight years in the Navy and was in the process of re-enlisting in hopes of becoming a Navy SEAL, family and friends said. He was killed in the gunfire; his girlfriend survived.

Twenty-four-year-old Alex Teves dived on top of his girlfriend, Amanda Lindgren, when the gunfire erupted. Covering her body, he took the bullets so they did not harm her. She survived the massacre; he did not.

Matt McQuinn, 27 years old, threw his body in front of his girlfriend, Samantha Yowler, as the shooting continued. Yowler survived with a gunshot wound to the knee; McQuinn's body absorbed the fatal shots.

These men were three of the 12 innocent people killed early that morning. Their incredible sacrifice leaves us asking: Why? Why would a young man with his entire life ahead of him risk everything for a woman he has no legal, financial or marital obligations to?

As Hanna Rosin so eloquently pointed out in a recent article, calling it chivalry would be a tremendous understatement. By all appearances, these men believed that a man has a responsibility to protect a woman, even to the point of death. They believed that there are things in life worth dying for and the innocent woman sitting next to them was one.

They believed, to put it simply, in a code of honor. They put the lives of the women before their own, an old fashioned notion to be sure, but certainly an honorable one (if you have any doubt, ask the survivors). Their instincts were to protect, not run away.

In an age when traditional manhood has been increasingly relegated to fiction -- capes, masks and green screens -- these three men stand as real-life heroes. Their actions remind us that good triumphs over evil, not just in movies, but also, in reality.

May they rest in peace.

Behind the name

I'm Still Chasing Rainbows. You might wonder why I chose that name. I used that quote for my twitter profile too actually.

Actually, I'm Still Chasing Rainbows simply mean, I'm chasing the unknown. I'm clueless on what I want to do next in the future. But hoping for a bright one. Thus, the word rainbow.

A young lady, taking a few steps on her own, just starting to discover life beyond the bubble her parents has shelter her growing up. No offence but I had a great time growing up in a bubble. I'm actually really thankful that I grew up in one. Growing up in a city, in a daily school, things could turn wrong in so many ways. Friends play a very important role. I am blessed to have such good friends that holds on to the same value that I do. Blessed indeed I am. Alhamdullilah, praise Allah for that.

I don't know why, but I just love the quote. I'm Still Chasing Rainbows. I woke up one morning and *poof* the quote was ringing in my head. I don't know how, I don't know why though.. But I'm in love with it. It can mean so many things, but for me, it's just, a quote to describe where I'm at now, chasing the unknown, still trying to figure out, about life, love, friendship, etc etc.